I’ve wasted 4 years of my life on here

being so young when I joined I was impressionable and made a bunch of mistakes that got me into shit later on. And the people I decided to associate myself with was unhealthy. My biggest role model on here is some mentally ill girl. All of my friends on here are mentally ill, a bunch of people I associated myself with were fucked up in the sense that they were either unwell or awful people. And having so many people I saw as “cool” be mentally ill made me want to have that. I’ve gone through saying I’m depressed autistic have anxiety all that shit but in reality I’m too scared to go to a professional in the fear that I’m neurotypical and “boring”. Anytime I tried to be myself I lost followers and that was more important to me than living my life. I’m not just some shock jock edgelord or some sex fueled problematic attention whore but I had no clue about that until recently . I could sit here and lie and say I hate Newgrounds but I can’t bring myself to say that cause it’s such a big part of my personality. I’m actually addicted to this shit dude. I hate all of this I wish I could start life over but I can’t so whatever I just gotta live with this until I can finally quit this internet shit for good and just live with my girlfriend and my dogs.

new art whenever I feel like it cause I don’t owe you. Ok seeya